Trail of spiritual healing    continues

SAINT   IN THE PRISON

I work in the prison  and discovered  a  saint.

Saint Joe Smith ( not his real name)   never complained, quiet person,

happy all the time ,which is  very     unusual   for   a  inmate.

That made very  curious but it was very difficult to get any information, So I

start giving out my healing tips, he  liked  those.

One day he said  how I come up such great healing tips.

I said people like  you  share their  stories  and   I  modify and  write   those  tips   and lot of people  get benefit from those

like you did.

After couple days  he  asked if he share his story    will  it  become the  part of medical record  or

any one know   who I am.

I assured him that is not the case , no one   will know, I will use the name of Joe Smith.

It was  a very long story, very inspirational  with great  lessons.

I grew  up in small town with  big family.

We were very poor, my father was a farmer ,  worked long hours too busy to help others and

not paying attention to  his  own family.

My mother and father  both were very nice and hard working.

My  elder brother  start having sex with me when I was 9yr and always pays me, so I never though it was wrong.

His  two friend  start having sex with me and paid me  and it continues.

I never thought that some thing  is wrong.

When I turn 15  I start doing  that to my younger brother  and  other kids, never thought that any thing is wrong.

I was  bright I get into college  major in business, and started  my own business and have kids.

I continue  my permescuse  sexual behavior even after marriage and never thought  there is anything wrong.

Life was good. Due to my accountant  carelessness I end up in prison  and met other inmates,

and realized , I am  not very  different  from them.

I   am fortunate that  my father and mother provided me  stable home, and were great role model.

If I  would have born   in  different home , I will be  in their shoes and doing worse than them.

First time in life I  had time to reflect, I remembered  my father always try to teach   bible,

I could not really understood.

I start reading bible, It seemed  I am reading the first time.

I loved the verse Matthew   Worship in secret, God will reward  openly.

I truly practiced that  and I start remembering  sins  I has forgotten and I repented  and repented.

Some time this struggle with myself become so painful, I wish I be stoned to death for my sins.

Finally I  start felling  kind of peace     I never experienced before. I  achieved  peace with God.

That is the best thing  happened to me.

I am  repenting  all the time and I know  how I will spend  rest of my life.

My conclusion   DO NO WRONG.

Especialy  Sex   who  is meant for reproduction  only between husband and wife.

Any other  kind of  sex  is toxic to the soul, even lustful looking  on others , even  pictures

are equally toxic  to soul.

THE SAINTLY ENDING.

PS: Sin is a sin  weather I am aware  or  not, damage is real, repent as soon

I realize  it  and never ever do it again  and become the strong advocate

against the I  had committed.

Attendum: I can only compare  myself  to me only, what I was yesterday,

what I am today and what I want to be tomarrow.

Yesterday  I was  a devil, and I did not knew it,

Today  I am a devil   and know it, I rather stay in  cage (Jail) till

I can cage the devil with in so I can live my life.

This is a most  difficult task  I ever  had to  cage the devil with in.

Hopefully tomarrow  I will be a Saint.

NOTE: Each Saint has a past.

Every sinner has  a future.

Devil has a great past, but no future   unless  he repent and be forgiven.