Trail of spirtual healing 101 continues

Last sunday  in harrisburg newspaper  there was  stroy  of   25 yrs

marine  who served  two combat tours ,one in Iraq and one in Afghanistan.

When he returned home he faced  more viscous  internal enemies of fear, guilt and hopelessness.

He has no training  to fight those enemies, and all the  weapons he tried, Counsling, medication

and sheer will failed. He  successfuly killed  himself and lost the life game, died before his time.

He was diagnosed PTSD (the war within)caused by bad  experiences.

Another event in Texas  a peson  killed  and wonding multiple  person, and killed himself.

It seems  nothing worked   for him  too.

Eash human go though PTSD in one form or other, that is the  part of growing up.

What equipment do I need  to combat my inner  war?

I do know that I have fear and guilt that stop me to live   full, not only I have to know  this

but a plan how to treat myself  before I become  hopeless and take my life before my time.

Sourse of fear is what others  did to  me  and I  have trusting others due to that fear.

I am suffering and punishing myself  for the crimes other did to me instead  of learning  the much needed 

lessons  and be thankful for free education and  be thankful  to those  who tough me  but not to tell them

knowing them they will send me the bill for their services.

Souse of guilt is  wrong   I did to myself  and to others . I must repent to myself and other and become the

strong advocate agaist all  the crimes I  comited and share the consequances I suffer and be a example for others.

Of couse the treatment of  fear and guilt is life long process.

I must do my home work regularly and in return I will become more and more hopeful and live a full time instead

of dying  or  killing myself  before  my time.

THE HOPEFUL ENDING.

PS:Faith is the engine I need  to do good deeds, With faith and good deeds I can overcome any internal and

esternal  issues.

Addendum: Faith like engine need  tuneup oil change and  fuel to keep going. Maingting my faith(engine),

using LOVE  as fuel,PATIENCE as oil change, and  WORSHIP  my  tune up, I will reach my  destination.

NOTE: Defective faith is worse than no  faith. With no faith I will kill myself, with defective faith I will kill  others  before killing

myself.  The day I was born  with ability to live  healthy 130 yrs. But due the toxic encounters and the mistakes I made tool a tool

on the quantity of life which is irreversible.  But I can become  aware  any time, learn and love my inner enemy, I will have no

enemy and I will live happity till death make  me depart from myself     THE E ND   But  Begin of a heavenly life for ever.   NO END