On Y TUBE I listened to my favorite author Scott Peck MD emphasizing the need of self love.
He is one of the three most influential persons in my life.
I am following him since I read his book Road less traveled.
With my experience now I was always the aggressor and I was always the victim all my life.
This process is still on , that is my comfortable zone, like a bird in a cage for so long afraid to fly away and give up the comfort of
my cage.
I was never a victim I always a participant, and was addicted.
Instead of confronting myself I tried to help everyone so I feel good and make myself life difficult
and feeling that is /was purpose of my life, instead confronting myself and find the true purpose of my life SELF LOVE
True this the most difficult task of my whole life, But I can see the reward and that keep me going.