Reflection  on  Shannon Quigley  R.N. of the  day

When I  reflect I  realize that  I have  great  powers and  wisdom,   and

had   great responsibility    to  love  learn  and   serve   myself  first so  I  can  do   the  same  to everyone.

If I  stay  unaware of my  abilities , forceful  powers  will make my life like a  roller coaster.

Reminder    to  fix  the roller  coaster  and   turn into a  ship  and    have  smooth  sailing  or choose

to keep   enjoying  the  rollercoaster and  unable  to serve  my purpose.

• with pure Faith I will have Divine understanding I know tat present moment is the best moment ,  today is the best and is the happiest day

As long I  keep my faithPure this understanding  and happiness will never change

May each  human  have a  divine life

Choice is mine

On  Y TUBE   I   listened  to  my favorite  author   Scott Peck  MD   emphasizing  the  need  of self  love.

He  is  one of  the three   most influential persons in my life.

I am following  him   since  I  read   his  book  Road less traveled.

With  my  experience  now   I  was  always   the aggressor  and  I was  always   the  victim  all  my life.

This process  is  still   on ,  that is  my  comfortable  zone, like a  bird in a cage  for so long   afraid  to  fly  away  and  give  up  the comfort  of

my cage.

I  was  never a  victim I always  a participant,   and  was addicted.

Instead  of  confronting myself  I  tried  to  help  everyone  so  I  feel  good  and   make myself  life difficult

and  feeling    that  is /was  purpose of  my life, instead  confronting myself  and  find  the  true  purpose  of my  life  SELF LOVE

True  this    the most  difficult  task  of  my whole  life,   But  I  can  see the  reward    and  that keep  me  going.

Past life was roller coaster one day upOther day down.

Present is smooth sailing  , today is always better than yesterday,  knowing tomarrow will better  than today.

A great  feeling  wish  the best for everyone,

Priceless feeling , wish best for everyone , but never trade  that  feeling  for  all the wealth of universe.

Smooth  sailing  do  become  rocky  so  I    be thankful  and     do not take  every blessing    granted.

Each human has a visible body and invisible soul.

human body has attraction for other human bodies  And call it LOVE  and do become body mate that is short lived and is very dangerous if not done  with spouse for reproductive reasons.

All humans are soul mates which is true pure love  .

I I have to do soul searching  and I  will realize I am Spirtual being first in a human body.

Body is vessel  and soul is the cargo.

destination is heaven.

i must LOVE  my body and take best care otherwise I will never reach my destination  and never have a heavenly journey

Mid I guard My body  I will in fellowship of GOD and I will reach my destination safely

When I reflect at my past, I been captive of Satan and  I had two

two forces in me. My angel part and self evil part.

I learned self defense  and ignored  My part.

I  am selfaware and start self purification process. During this process old Self died and I has birth of new self reliving my new  pure past that will  be foundation of my heavenly future. This process is very very hard and is very very rewarding

Every Saint has a past.

Devil has a past

has perfect past can trick Saint   because  of sinful past  and turn into sinner

Some Saints can relapse  due to defective past and turn into a sinner again  because of  defective past

Dismantling the past and reliving  saintly past   will  be the foundation to transformed  to   true saint With wings  and  have the ability to build a heavenly future

once upon a time there was poor righteous man

He worked very hard to take care of his family  and help everyone and  at  the   end of the day prayed  for every one including the devil  sick  and evil people.

when he died  he saw  devil sitting with next  to  GOD.  He was happy  that GOD  forgave devil and thanked GOD to accept his prayers

Devil  stood up and bow down to that man and said “ I was wrong  GOD was right humans are better than me.

GOD forgave him and gave his old job  back he lost his horns and got his wings back  and everyone live happily ever after.

THE    NEW   BEGINNING

PS     Any  human  can  be  that   man, we all  have  that  choice.

Every human remind me of the invisible CREATOR.

I want to know the CREATOR and explain to me what I do not understand.

Looking into the mirror , I realized  that I do not understand myself , and do not  know my purpose.

I reflected  and realized I  only useing  tiny fraction of my abilities.

I have to fix the damage I caused to myself  and others.

I start understanding but I know I have long way to go to be what GOD  want me to be.

I request everyone to pray for me  I  can  use all the prayers I can get and thank you all in advance  and I am doing like wise

While  growing  up  I  learned  self defense  and  practiced  it in

all aspects of  my life  and   was  very  successful.

When I  become Physician  I had  hard time  having  empathy  for  my patients

While in a medical conference   Speaker refer to  a Jesus   quote  Physician thy  heel  self.

I question to myself  Do I  have a  sick self?

I  recognized  my  sickness  and  named  at Lucifer  syndrome.

I  start  treating  myself and  to my  surprise  I  end up  learning  from  my patients ,

They   helped   me   to become  more   and more  aware of my sick self.

I realized  SELF  was  beast  within  me, get into  conflicts with others and  I  end  up  being  hurt.

I  start taming  my  BEAST  and  turn into  watch  dog.

Now  I  realize    how true  Jesus  was. I can only heel myself , any  may help  patients as  they helped me

to become aware,  but  they  are  the one  who  will heel  themselves.